Haha. The title describes itself right? =D

These last two have been pretty unimaginative, I’ll try for a better pic tomorrow!

Day 5: Blank Mind

Today’s youth: Blank Minds.

I feel like this is such a cop out for the “blank” project. Lol But…I am running on only 3 hours sleep and the verge of a bad headache. All while running the house and settling drama.

Day 4: Blank Past

Why am I so excited?? Well…I GOT A JOB! YAY! =D I am now a Seasonal Sales Associate for Bath and Body Works. =) I am going to work my butt off so that I have a good chance at being hired full time after the holiday season. Plus I have another job interview at Jenny Craig as a weight loss consultant on monday morning. The manager told us in the interview that a second job is 100% ok because she can’t expect someone to live off of 3 hours a week. Yes, some seasonal employees will only get that few hours. I would prefer to be a favorite and get more hours and have only one job. But I have had two job at the same time in the past, if necessary, I will do it again. =D

Either way, I start work on Wednesday at 11am. =D

YAY!

All ready for bed and sleepy just about to turn out the light when I hear this crash, hiss and something run and slam into my screen door. Scared the shit out of me!! So I get up, go to the back door that leads to the patio, turn on the light and shakily unlock the door. My cat Romeo is outside again! He was the one who ran into my door, trying to get back in. At least it was not a 630am or 830am wake up call like the last couple of nights…

This is the third night in a row that he was outside. My cats are not allowed outside. I have had some recent trouble with curious Romeo trying to get outside. He hides near the door so you cant see him then tries to sneak out. A cat too smart for his own good. Lol. Supervised daytime patio trips I do not mind but night time!?! Not cool!! We have coyotes that are bold enough to enter the backyard if a cat is lurking around the fence. We also have huge owls (yes, owls are known to attack cats) who are around this time of year living in our trees. One even came flying, attack mode, at my brother and me the other night. If I lost either one of my cats I would be devastated.

So how is he getting outside at night? Asshole! I mean my father! He sits up all night watching tv, but because he is nicotine addicted he often pauses the satellite and goes outside to chain smoke and watches tv out on the patio. How hard it is to look at the ground when coming in or out to make sure that there is not a cat there waiting to sneak out?? Not hard. So three nights in a row now he has let Romeo out. After the first night I told him, when you came back inside last night romeo got out. I didn’t even place the blame on him as to make him less defensive. He acted all concerned and upset. The next night you would think that he would pay more attention..right? Nope. So today I told my mom. Dad let romeo out again last night, I am wondering if he is doing it on purpose. He hates romeo and I have been on his shit list for a long while now. This is just the thing he would do to “get back at me”. She agreed and confronted him. After denying it she relayed the convo to me. He was super mad at me the rest of tonight and I am afraid that tonight he really let romeo out on purpose because he was “accused” earlier. I mean, how can this happen 3 nights in a row, with being nicely told each afternoon that he was responsible and to please please watch when going in and out of the house? I even put a box in the way of romeo’s hiding spot today so he couldn’t sneak and it would be completely obvious that he is by the door. Is my father more deaf dumb and blind than I thought he was?

I am quite upset and not at all tired anymore. I needed to vent. I don’t know what to do. I am used to being treated like shit so I put up with it, but putting my cat/s in danger? The only thing I have asked from him since moving back home is to not let the cats outside, especially at night, and he cant even respect that. What should I do? Does anyone have any advice as to dealing with this? It seems simply talking to him and explaining things does not work. Big surprise there. It is not like I can lock romeo up in a closet all night so he can’t get out. =( Call me the crazy cat lady if you like, but my kitties are my kids and I want to find a solution for this!

I see this and can’t help but think of my past. A childhood is supposed to be full of happiness, family moments full of joy. Instead my past, my memories of these moments are blank.

Day 3: Blank Body