Oh, and I forgot to mention...I (FINALLY) HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW TOMORROW!!!! Woo Hoo!!!
Out of all the apps it was the one place I wasn't really excited at the idea of working there and it was posted to be only part time at about 3-15 hours/week. But, I really don't care! LOL. ...want...job...hehe
.:crosses fingers:.
Not much to say lately. Plus I have hardly spent much time online lately. Long enough to check updates and such. =) Since i don't have many words I will fill my blog with pics.
Old pic, see the snow on the peaks?? I love how the clouds are hovering in front of the mountains. Hard to tell? Alright...next.
A little under exposed so you can see the top of the clouds better...see the top peaks above the house on the right/middle? Since we moved here, 15 years ago, I have thought that they look like Abe Lincoln, laying down. Haha I know, I am weird. Anyways...hard to see? Alright...next.
Enlarged! See! Shadowed eye sockets on the right, then heading left, the nose, then chin/beard. A little odd, and I don't know why it looks like Abe to me...but it does, and he is my friend. He makes me happy. LOL. On a clear day this summer I will attempt a better pic of him. =)
Alright ladies and gentlemen. That is all I have. Thank you for indulging me and my imagination. =D
Ahh father's day. A day that I have to pretend more than usual. Today I have to pretend that I really love my dad, that I have good memories of him growing up. In truth I have very few memories of him being there. My mom, she is always there. My dad, mostly only when he was yelling and screaming at us. "You are worthless, useless motherfuckers .:throws something across the room:. you do nothing right .:throws anything else he can find:. you're not good enough". Emotional abuse, fear, broken hearts, shattered dreams. No support, nothing but insults. I wasn't allowed to play ball with my brother and dad, he wouldn't teach me, I was a girl. I was the slave. Bring him food, wait on him, clean the house and more. I grew up seeing myself as Cinderella. lol.
I always wanted to be daddy's little girl. Songs, movies, anything about that father daughter bond make me so sad. I see the neighbor out playing with his girls, coaching them in softball, going to all the games, being there. He is not perfect, but he is there. It makes my heart hurt to see. I am so happy for those girls, and a bit jealous at the same time. That relationship is special, so very very special. So if you love your Father. If he was good to you, if he was a true Father, then today show him you love him like he deserves. And say a Happy Father's Day once on my behalf. =)
I saw that tree and thought of myself, dark and dead in a field of green flourishing life.
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause he's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't break even, even, no
What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break even)
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while he got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no it don't break even, no
Excerpts from Break Even by The Script
Yup. I am here to beg xanga for a little help.
There is a chance we(business partners and I) might get a new client, but to get this new client we must prove we are capable of creating dvds and menus in other languages. We need to send in a demo disc to show off our work but I need to translate all the menus options to French and German first. I have tried the babelfish free app and a translator on google, but that just gives you the option to look up words or popular phrases, it does not translate "unique" sentences.
So...does anyone know where I could go for help, or...does anyone fluently speak either French or German and would be willing to translate a few (about 31) words or sentences(5 words or less)?? Please? 
...You could message me or if you have msn/windows live messenger I am there....
If you know someone who might help could you rec?
Thank you thank you thank you!!!! 
I needed some time alone, I miss that around here, it is hard to get. I took a drive out towards the mountains on tuesday and found a hill that my friends and I climbed once upon a time. A hill where an Indian tribe lived. I used to be afraid of it...it is said that the medicine man went crazy and killed everybody, then himself. I don't know if that is true, but either way, I went exploring once again. Next time I will take someone with me so I can climb further into the rocks and find the "cave" paintings again.
Proof of the Indians. =)
The setting sun was beautiful. The clouds were awesome. I wanted to just sit on the rocks forever and watch it go down. I have a love affair with the sky, especially the beauty of the rising and setting sun. I don't want to over load with pics in one post, so I will post more later. =)
Being unemployed sucks. With projects no longer coming in, my bank account balance is dwindling. I have two bills, my cell phone and my one credit card that has a balance. I don't use the cc, but I have a payment going there each month for a time share the ex and I bought together. The ex sends me money for it each month. Unfortunately I have been paying only 3/4 of the monthly charge and pocketing the rest so I have food money. Now my cc is almost maxed out. I have a payment protection plan on the card also. The monthly charge for that has hit about $60 a month. So, trying to be a bit more economical I called them today to cancel the plan. I had already activated the "emergency" payment sometime in the last few months just so I could use a benefit (for the first time in 4 years) before I canceled. As sales people they do their best to try and keep me paying into the protection. When I stated that I am unemployed and cannot afford the even cut benefits and reduce the charge they said well, you have a benefit to cover that. What?? I do? Being that our clients were forced to take their business somewhere else and I have not had work in the last 30 days I qualified for the unemployment benefit. They will make a payment today that covers the April through June minimum balances including the cost of the plan. From here on out they will cover my minimum balance (again plus the cost of the plan) for the next 12 months or until I become employed. No hit to my credit, no effect on my financials at all because I pay for the protection and have paid into it for 4 years.
Talk about a load off!!! Whew. I was getting a little scared about not being able to pay in the coming months.
So. Anyone with active credit cards who are offered these plans. I say go for it. When I got the sales call so many years I thought I would never use this. Well today I am glad that girl was such a good saleswoman and sold me on the whole package. If I get a job soon, I will not be canceling this plan to save money. Nope not after this.
What a great way to start the day.
I was awake early enough yesterday morning that I got to see the sunrise. It was nice. I could hear the birds fluttering about and singing their songs. Tip toeing though the house and around outside as not to wake the rest of the family. I decided to take some pics. Imagine my country bumpkin-but prefers the city self out and about in my pajamas, barefoot in the dirt road and in the fields takin pictures. I am sure I was a sight. =) They are not the greatest but oh well. =) I could really use a tripod and a zoom lens. I had to use the roof of my car to keep the camera steady for the first two. Lol!
It's past three am. What should I be doing?? Sleeping! I can't, my schedule got messed up again. Grrr. I am back to going to bed between 5 and 9 am. Three years of this schedule and a life long tendency to stay up late makes it really hard to stick to a "regular" person schedule. So who's up for a little late night rant? No one? Oh yeah, everybody is sleeping. 
I have spent the last few days filling out and dropping off job applications. I hate that I get myself looking extra nice only to say Hi and Thank You. 
I am looking for a retail jobs because, well it isn't terribly hard, and the schedule could be changed to accommodate school. Oh and I like to work with people. I know I probably need a good smack in the face. Anyways. What gets me frustrated is that no matter how qualified I am, How fast and easily I learn and how good I may be with people on a customer service level, my apps will most likely be overlooked. Why? Well my resume looks...overqualified?? One job I really wanted, and even slightly flirted with the manager so he would remember me when dropping off the app. Well he remembered me, but when he looked over my attached resume he asked. "So why do you want this (management) job when you have design experience?" Agh. Um I am self taught and need a "degree" to get the good jobs? Oh and some classes under my belt to be a bit more competitive....?
Lets explain my resume.....
People only see "designer" and put me aside. Never mind that I am desperate for a job because I just want to work. I want to be around people again. I am not afraid of work and I work hard. I am willing to take any pay and any hours. All I really need is enough to pay my few bills, buy a little food, and expand my savings. Anything after that goes to starting school again. Pay me minimum wage and give me 15 hours a week. Fine with me. Plus you'll get an eager employee. What more could they ask for? Too bad I can't write all that on my resume/apps because if I really really want the job I usually bomb the interview because my mouth does not get along with my brain.
I hate this competitive job market crap. Even for the little jobs. Damn economy.
So....you wanna hire me??? Someone give me a job.
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