April 27, 2011

• I haven’t been around much lately. The two weeks after my last post i spent my days off in la with Jacques. The longest we went without seeing each other during that time was four days. There was lots of bonding time. Now we are at 3 weeks. There are tentative plans for me to go down there next wednesday. We will see. There is so much I could write about the progression of us. Comments like “it feels like forever since I’ve seen you, and it’s been such a hard time for us both, I wish we could just hang out” and random phone calls just to talk (which he has never done, ever). That blog would take forever though. I miss him terribly and can’t wait to get down there!

  I have mostly been absent from xanga because I have been terribly sick. Extreme nausea, exhaustion, daily fevers over 100, dizziness all lasting about 3 weeks. First I thought it was a flu, then everyone had me terrified I was pregnant, I thought I was just run down from so many trips to la, work, side work with my ex and a project with Jax all at once. Wednesday I ended up in urgent care and was told I had a raging kidney infection that would have put me in the er with bad complications by the weekend. I was instructed to go straight to the er if my nausea got worse, any pains started and I was not better in two days. Of course my symptoms worsened and I ended up in the er after a second trip to urgent care. I don’t have insurance so I was hoping urgent care could help. =( The er ran a bunch of tests and rehydrated me then told me to go home. =( Jax was so incredible this whole time I’ve been sick. He has worried endlessly, checked on me multiple times a day, if I did not keep him updated I got in trouble, he called the project manager and had our project due date pushed back a week so I could get better, so many other little things. He said he wished he was in the er with me so he could entertain me and help me kill time. He told me today I am not allowed to get sick again because he was too worried and stressed. Lol. Men. He’s been really sweet though, another thing I never expected from him.

  Around thursday my grandmother was taken to the hospital for a urinary tract infection that made her septic. At 92 that is quite dangerous. The dr’s told my mom not to expect her to recover but she did. They cleared the infection out of her body and she was doing much better and slated to come home today. Still quite weak and still in the hospital she suffered from a heart attack last night. It was a pretty major attack and they do not feel she will recover this time. I dont think she will be coming home…the family is all coming out to see her. I am so sad I don’t know what to do. I hope she wows everybody again and gets better. I mean, she beat cancer twice, got within inches of death from sepsis after the second cancer battle, survived sepsis at 92…a heart attack should be nothing for her right?? Yeah, ill keep trying to convince myself. She is my last living grand parent, always my favorite and I love her terribly. =(

  I really wish I had a more upbeat topic to blog about…

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