January 10, 2011
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After a year of feeling hurt, or nothing, I wonder if I am doing this in an effort to just feel something. How vain am I? It feels so good to have someone I thought I was never good enough for to be pursuing me. Yes, I have an emotional “thing” for him, but I do not want a relationship with him I don’t at all want him to leave his baby mama. I just want us to give each other what we both need. I am so tired of being nice and getting screwed over. I want to be able to say wow life sucks but I sure did deserve that. Yes, i am being stupid and reckless, but I just get this feeling that it is something I am supposed to do. So, I’ll see what happens…