January 9, 2011
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Venting about my idiocy contains sex so don’t read if u dont wanna know
Yes I will be revealing some sexual facts here so it you don’t want to know you can stop reading now… What constitutes cheating? Sexting? Phone sex? In his words…”helping him cum”. Is that cheating? There is no emotional attachment, just attraction and sex. I am still having issues with the morality of my actions yet barreling forward like a moron. Losing a little bit of respect for myself as I go along. I’ve been the other woman before and always promised myself I would never be again…he is just so damn good with words I find myself going along with his suggestions. Is this an affair? I have been invited to visit in LA, even if it is just for dinner and some time just hanging out. I have also been invited on a 3 day trip to Chicago(which I’m scared I’ll accept)…and got confirmation that this was not a “just this weekend” sort of thing. Yet we can go from “sex” and gotta wash up…to a 15+ minute phone convo about the kids, woman, and extended family. The “friendship” is just as it was, just some new stuff mixed in. Men never cease to amaze me. I know I am probably not the first affair, i believe the wife knows or has an idea… he is at least 15 years older than me and will never change. Why not enjoy it while it is available…? Right? Oh, did I mention that this “wife” is best friends with my exs new gf and that she was very much a part of the new girl pushing her way in between the ex an me at our weak moment? See why I don’t feel too too horrible? (OMG someone shoot me I’ve turned into a heartless bitch) My little sister said im the wife’s karma…i don’t know about that but it makes me feel better…I wish someone could slap some sense into me but who knows if I’m smart enough to listen.
Comments (1)
i think everyone has their own idea of what “cheating” is. think back about what clinton did. it was sex. but to him, in his own mind, it wasnt.
basicly cheating would be doing anything in a sexual manner that does not involve your SO. some may feel that even flirting is cheating. if you go biblical, if you have done it in your heart then you have cheated.
i would not think you would want to have any sort of connection with anyone that may have any connection with your ex.
he may have an open relationship, but i would want to hear that from his SO and see hear say that as body lang. says a lot. if it is truly acceptable to both AND you can stay unemotional about it, then go for it. but can you say he can be unemotianal about it?
there just seems to be so many ways that someone is going to be hurt by this. it is not a good idea to do something out of some revenge no matter how weak it may seem to be.
yes i know you want/need to feel something hard between your thighs. but at what cost?
if the contact is just to be social and be friends, that might be ok. but again, there is that connection with the ex that i am sure will pop its ugly head up and i would not want you to have those feelings coming up again.
i think it better to stick to your promise about not being the other woman again.
and just and fyi…and so that it is out there…it would not change how i feel about you if you went ahead with this idea. i also would not tell you..i told you so. and i would also be there to say good going, too. i would also be there with my shoulder for you to cry on. i may not like the choice. but that does not mean i dont like the chooser.